LDS, Polygamy and More

Let me begin with this. I was not raised within the Church, nor was I ever allowed within the Temple. I learned about the Church probably around the age of twenty-one when I was very busy with my schooling and many other things. I did my best to attend as often as I could. I have been baptized Mormon. In fact, I still have my little key chain that was supposed to symbolize the light of the holy spirit. I went to church faithfully for a few years, until I started having dreams.. having.. thoughts that seemed to plague me considering that I have been taught the past few years that Plural Marriage is bad. So I faded out from Church which was easy to do when I moved to a different state. However, here is where I sit. I am very close to a Ward here in Las Vegas. I have been feeling these urges to return to church, to go back, to just hide and lie about my beliefs. Though I wonder.. How in good faith, can I go to church, and carry myself as an LDS Mormon when I know that some of the things I desire in my life are simply NOT allowed by the Church?

So I guess I pose this to you. Is it wrong of me to return to church? Should I ignore this sudden overwhelming call to return to the Church and get involved? I mean, how as a woman, do I even have the right to suggest such a thing if I were to meet a man who I fell in love with and felt that God wished me to be with. I guess, I have so many questions, and so many confusions, that I simply do not know what to do just yet. I don't know how to act or if it is right or wrong. Is there anyone out there who can help me?